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As many of you know Tommy is in the ICU right now and fighting for his life. Basically I am in no way financially stable enough at the moment to handle all of the costs associated with getting back and forth to the hospital to see him. Not only am I going to be heading back and forth to the hospital to check on Tommy as much as possible, I will also be moving in the next few weeks.

(I am going to continue to work as much as possible during this time, but I have to reduce my hours, which will also reduce my income).

Things I need money for include:
Inspecting and registering the van so I can drive back and forth without getting pulled over.
Gas money to help get me to and from the hospital.


There is a possibility that this is going to cost me every penny I have and more. Anything you can spare will be very much appreciated. The most important part is getting the van on the road.

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Hey guys!! You do not wanna miss this party at PorcFest!!!

I had a really awesome time last year, dressed in my fanciest pirate costume and got to drink for free!!! It was a blast and I am sure this year is going to be even bigger and better.

https://www.facebook.com/events/376918689013280/

oh snap!!

The second annual Liberty Roast at PorcFest is going to be awesome, you guys do not want to miss this!!

Guest of Honor: Christopher Lawless (aka Ron Paul’s Freaking Giant)
Roast Master: Robert Murphy
w/ Angela Keaton, Adam Kokesh, Carla Gericke, John Bush,
Stefan Molyneux, Kate Baker, Jamie Crane & Tarrin Lupo


**This is a late-night event featuring adult humor, bad language, blatant inebriation and things our deviant minds cannot even contemplate to disclaim. Please consider this if you have children and/or delicate sensibilities. YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED. :-)**


Don’t miss it guys, go here and register for PorcFest!!

Take action @ NH Compassion if you support medical marijuana!! =)

Soooo ready for PorcFest this year! This is my favorite picture from last year!!! <3

Soooo ready for PorcFest this year! This is my favorite picture from last year!!! <3

Overcoming disappointment is something I am constantly working on. I have had a lot of ups and downs in my life, this past year has been a roller coaster. To put it a little more bluntly, my life has been fucked up, unstable, insane, and unpredictable for a while now and last year it became absolutely unbearable. I spent a lot of time feeling down about everything I “lost” when in reality I found more freedom by loosing some of the weight that was holding me back. One of the things that came out of all the downs was freedom from a relationship that grew to be more and more unhealthy for everyone involved. I have gained a lot of happiness since that relationship ended and more self confidence than I ever had before. It turns out, the relationship was really bad for my self esteem and left me constantly feeling like I was not good enough (sometimes it made me feel like it would be better to just NOT exist). I am disappointed in myself for letting it go on for so long, definitely long enough to leave a negative impact on more lives than just mine. Basically my whole life was burned to the ground and I felt like I was just sitting out in the cold for a few months there. I feel like I am finally starting to rebuild a more stable life to “live in”. Out with the old unhealthy relationships and in with the new healthy/loving relationships. I am trying to overcome the disappointment. I still have manic episodes but I do feel like I am getting better and stronger every day. Feeling more sure of myself and more positive about where my life is going.
I am also ALWAYS working on cutting “baggage” out of my life. It is hard for me to let go of things that hurt me. I have to get over this because the more things I get rid of… the more room I have in my heart for amazing people. Sometimes you find the most caring and beautiful people in the worst situations of your life. So I have to acknowledge the new “family” I have found. I love each and every one of you to pieces and am so glad our paths crossed. I met you exactly when I needed you in my life. You brought a lot of positive light into a very dark experience I was having and I hope I brought a little light to you as well. <3