Well guys, I know it seems as I just dropped off the face of the earth. This is only partially true. Today I deactivated my public facebook profile. It caused a lot of stress and drama and I need a breather. I may reactivate it at some point in the future but I need to work on my “IRL” relationships more than my internet ones. I will be better off having more time to put into HEALTHY relationships with people I already love and care about, I am cutting out any relationship that is affecting me negatively with no possible positive outcome as of right now.
I will be stepping back from the FSP community to make connections with locals and get involved in other ways. I know there are good people in the FSP but it is such a small concentration of people, the drama and fighting never really dies down, every once in a while you might get a break like in the eye of a hurricane. That seems to happen to be the kind of thing that occurs when people want to try and force friendships because they were lead to beleive they would have a built in group of friends once they got to NH. This is what I should have done in the first place. The best friends I have made ended up being people who did not even know about the FSP when I met them, people who were born and raised in NH. Turns out, they were already leaning towards voluntaryism/anarchism/libertarianism, they just don’t use labels. So if you are in NH and wonder why you are not seeing me around much, it is because I feel there are better places to put my heart right now. I am not bashing the FSP, I just think that people should make their own lives when they move to NH to be a part of it and not try to build their whole world around “being a freestater” or “hanging only with freestaters”.
Bardo Farm is one of the places I want to put my heart into right now, I have been staying here in my RV for a while now and I want to do everything possible to make the Bardo folks proud to have me around. I love all of the people here, all of the animals here, doing work here… I wouldn’t want to be anywhere else right now. Learning and growing every day!